End of March

Sometimes the trip to Newport is melancholic, no single reason why, if any.  Not exceptionally grey today.  No rain.  Not the anniversary of any death that I remember.  The waters of the Bay beneath the bridge were joyless.  The close-packed blocks of houses are just old, not charming.  No one is smiling. No couples holding hands.  End of March, I guess.  Only conifers are green—that dead, dark, ominous green. 

The driver had a Christian candy-rock radio station out of Boston on.  Don’t know if he was listening or not; media tinnitus. I wanted it to be in some other language, one I would never understand.  I wanted to be drivng through a different decade, one from a previous century.  We cruised through stop signs.  My hands are always cold now.  These days are like an eternal dusk.  I ask the driver about his home in Kenya.  His accent sooths me.

The Songs of Water

Don’t confuse time with numbers,

unlike knowing seasons by their fruit.

Numbers fragment, pieces get lost,

we forget time’s wholeness, forget

it’s only energy slowed for us to feel.

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Time, after all, is our mother, our

lifetime companion, guardian angel

& occasional enemy. Everything past

she has stored there inside you.

There are no numbers anywhere there.